An Update

Hi. It’s been a while, the last update was depressing, and I have gone dark on most of my socials, so I wanted to confirm for everyone that I am alive. I am, to be frank, not okay, and I will not be ever again. The long version of what happened can be read here: https://www.facebook.com/share/p/1Bf9GcRSdb/

The short version is that, after an extreme abuse of implied authority, an animal shelter here in Iowa threatened me for hours in April until I “voluntarily surrendered” most of my disabled animals, and when I made it clear that I wanted them back, they retaliated by claiming I was an animal abuser and I was required to “voluntarily” surrender any of my remaining animals that they wanted or face animal cruelty charges. Basically, what the on-staff vet with this shelter said outweighed any proof I have, as well as the deputy who was there the first time and determined it was not a cruelty case, and because I am not a millionaire, I just had to let it happen.

My animals were and are my babies. They stole my babies from my home, which is now an empty, traumatizing shell I’m forced to live in, that I cannot escape because I’m disabled and homebound. They murdered at least one of my babies, permanently blinded two of them, and are continuing to intentionally prevent them from going back to the rescues, shelters, and owners they legally go back to if I cannot care for them. This has been nothing but a show of power and control, and they will continue to do it until, likely, the day *I* die.

With all of that said, I am still trying to write. I haven’t succeeded any yet, but I am trying. I have essentially nothing but free time now, which pains me to my very core, and I’m trying to do something useful with it instead of rotting away on the couch and dissociating my day away like I’ve been doing for over a month. I still don’t think writing Bo right now is a good idea, and I haven’t opened his book at all because of that. I’m trying to start something new. I’ve toyed around a bit with a zombie book, as zombies are oddly one of my comfort medias to watch and play, and I’m hoping I’ll be able to get actual words put down for it soon and start uploading chapters that will hopefully be enjoyable for some. I know zombie books aren’t everybody’s thing.

I will get back to Bo someday. He was the first character I wrote that I was actually proud of, and I have no intention of permanently leaving him behind. I just need a bit more time away from a character who is in the same place I am, even if that place was reached for different reasons.

I appreciate your patience during this time. I have not once been harassed or sent angry messages for the lack of chapters, which used to happen to me all the time on Wattpad, even when I was posting daily updates for multiple books at a time. “Appreciate” honestly doesn’t do it justice. You have all been very kind during every break I’ve taken, intentionally or otherwise, and it means a lot to me. Thank you.

I hope to see you soon with some zombies, and after that, hopefully with some Bo.